Love/Hate

I have to say, the thing that I love the most about Weight Watchers is the thing I hate most about Weight Watchers.

The program makes me pay attention to the things I eat and track those things. Which is good, because, days like today, I can go along thinking I am doing good, when in actuality, I am not in as good a place as I'd like to be. And I'm still hungry.

Then, the thing that I hate about it is the tracking and planning and constantly THINKING about food. I would like to think about something else for a while. But, I feel like I need to always be on guard. Food always has to be at the center of my attention, so I can be diligent about ignoring it. Get it?

The thing I love about culinary school is that I can think about food, but in a totally different way. I can think about it from a creative perspective as opposed to what I am putting in my mouth. I can look at food as art, I can enjoy the smell without having to eat it.

Some days, this struggle is easily won. Other days prove to be more of a challenge. The only thing I know for sure is that I will be stronger for the struggle.